Friday, December 10, 2010

Hypnosis So Far

I think it's working out pretty well! Even my roommate said it was a big improvement. So here's what happened last weekend:

The roommate, his cousin (my ex roommate) and I all went out to a local pub. I fully intended to get smashed... mission accomplished! So with a little liquid courage and the hypnosis techniques, I was a lot more out going and talked up a couple of groups of girls, kissed one, and generally had a good time. Once my friends gave me a shot of whiskey (my poison) I started to get really sick and that was pretty much the end of the night there, but up till that point things went really well.

I've had another session since then. Not likely to go out this weekend due to finals homework, but overall I've even noticed a change in my mentality. Like at this point, I don't really care if I have someone to hang out with or not. It used to be I got bored, then bummed out, then depressed if I was left alone with no one to talk to. Now, I just don't care either way. I'm not actively looking for people to spend time with outside of my close friends, and I'm fine with that. It is fun to get out, mingle, and meet new people for sure, but right now I'm busy with school, work and gym, so I'm plenty occupied as it is. Maybe when winter break gets here I can get out more often and take this a bit further.

Anyway, long story short, the hypnosis so far has accomplished one positive thing I hadn't anticipated - namely that I'm comfortable just being by myself, that's the first step to being comfortable with myself, and once I can accept myself as I am, then I won't need to seek it out in others anymore. Like I said before, I'm already feeling that way now. Not that I WANT to be a loner or that I have to be one, just that I can be cool just hanging out alone, doing my thing, and not get all bummed out about it. I appreciate and look forward to the time I hang out with my roommate, his cousin, my lifting partner, or anyone else I consider a friend. But if they aren't around to hang out with, no big deal, I can entertain myself.

So I have four more hypnosis sessions left, I fully anticipate that I will accomplish a lot of my goals through this process. That combined with my general feeling of "just try it" will get me a long way to where I want to be.